wasted day

Not sure if I shared this picture with you yet.. but it is perfect for my self portrait. This would be a selfie of me this afternoon. What ever it conjures up, this is how I felt. I could do nothing but BE, I lay like this hunk of metal…. dormant, not willing or interested in functioning. The possibilities I’m sure were there, but.. NOTHING was going to inspire action of any kind,
Seconds turned to minutes, and the minutes to hours. ??? What was the cause of this “malady” … a necessary visit to the eye doctor .. as a diabetic I need to visit him once a year. Have my eyes checked for health reasons, it was all for a good cause… and never before in years past, have I had such a negative reaction to this nice man. We all know such visits are painless.
Its the drops. I just can’t cope with the after effect they have on me. Before my husband would be waiting for me to drive me home. However, we all know.. I now have to get home on my own.. and big baby that I was, the sun was hurting my eyes, I felt like I was trying to drive with wool over my eyes. The anxiety was acute, and I succumbed to it. There I have admitted it. The Virgo in me, hates it when I fall prey to the “baby” in me.
Good or Bad….. it is your mirror. Sincere expressions invite good results, but insincere expressions can lead to unexpected trouble.
Perfect Liberty 2020.24
Things that happen to us all have a meaning. /everything that happens to us happens for a reason. Each and every occurrence is a chance for you to improve yourself.
Perfect Liberty 2019.24
Oyashikiri
Written
on August 17, 2013