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maudlin

photo Dave Renz (day 68)

Yuppers today I woke up with a maudlin mind. My thoughts travelled down roads, through valleys and dales that well…just brought tears that needed to be expressed. Crying doesn’t mean I’m unhappy, it means I am reliving a series of events that tugged at my heart strings.

I talk to you all about love all the time. Love is forever moments that live on in the energy field that is me, myself and I. Crying is cleansing, to allow a tear drop to fall is to allow the sunshine in on a sunny day.

music,singers,song writers, story tellers, what a beautiful world we live in

There will always be a way. If you persist and be creative without giving up, you will find solutions that you had not considered before.

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Now I’m off to exercise, walk my many steps, and move. How about you! step, step, step, exercise your brain, your body, your everything. Life is for living.

Oyashikiri

immerse yourself

a moment in time

You will find joy when you immerse yourself in your task. When you face your tasks with a can do attitude, you will be filled with enthusiasm and inspiration.

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Oyashikiri

sound of silence

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Is there a sound to grief. When a loved one dies.. leaves our world leaving us to adjust to continuing on the journey on our own. No one told me of “grief attacks”or the immediate excruciating pain that can be triggered by a “memory”

I was not told to expect exhaustion and disruption, I was told that early grieving is perhaps the hardest work you will ever do.

Without your former companion, you no longer have a “mirror” to reflect back to you who you are and what you want in life. Now only you can furnish the answers by getting to know yourself.

-Dorothy Edgerton, ( learningto live alone)

We experience so many emotions after a loved one passes,when we think surely life is leveling … we are hit with an ongoing echo.. of loss, pain, and a fresh waves of grief.

Grieving requires an enormous energy, but pretending that you are not grieving requires even more.

It is important to say “Thank you” Everything that appears in front of you is all material for you to improve yourself whether it i’s food, people or things. Learn to accept everything, whether it is something you like or not.

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UNCONDITIONAL LOVE NEVER GOES AWAY -it transforms from season to season. You may not always see or hear it. But like the steady beating of your heart, it lives within you and permeates all of you, forever and always

Oyashikiri.

A big thank you to my friends/family and love ones, who are reaching out to me. I love you.This moment of tears will pass.. Love heals.

photo – Dave Renz

looking for birds

Trekking through an area of land that until very recently was unknown to me, it is only some 15 minutes from me.. Yes I’ve been driving by for years, and never knew his gem existed. Took a serious world ” happening” to get me to actually get out of my car and explore the area. Also.. to give credit where it is due, it took my dog taking off on me out of the car .. and heading down one of the trails with an urgent need to explore.

I took him back there today, but on a leash. He was not impressed. The little missy, balked at going out, so .. guess what.. she got left at home. Too bad so sad, was not going to insist. When Velcro and I came home, we were both full of the most wonderful tantalizing smells. Don’t know how they communicate, but they certainly seemed to be having a good exchange of information ..

About the birds, I saw flashes of colour here and there, and birds darting from one tree to another.. but was unable to get one to light long enough for me to grab a picture. What I can tell you is that right now the woods are filled with the chirping and singing of the many species that are taking temporary accommodation in the area as they migrate through Ontario.

Life is really an adventure, some chapters are easy reading, and others are jam packed with excitement, tension, and the unknown.. Whatever chapter you are in, you have to know.. that the next page will bring something new into your awareness, it will be forever unfolding.

There will always be a way. if you persist and be creative without giving up, you will find solutions that you had not considered before.

Perfect Liberty 2020.28

Oyashikiri

are you?

running or standing still

Good morning =^_^= if you have been with me along this journey for some time, you may recall this photo. It was taken around the time my husband passed away. The car was totaled. Ask me today, anything about that time, if I was hurt, what happened.. it will be two years in the spring, yet I can only give you a vague recollection. I would have to stop, and think back, focus on that time. I won’t do it. Why, because the Universe saw me through that time period. Now, I am living the experiences and adventures of today. “be in the now” (PL)

Outside the hospital after we knew it was terminal

What I hold dear is the memory of the many years we had, the blessings that our togetherness was strong, that we held on to the Oneness that was US.

We loved most the moments we could share in tranquil places we found along the way.

Are you running or standing still, are you dreaming or living your precious moments here on earth. ?? When you are faced with the turmoil and challenges of outside elements that want nothing better but to cause destruction. Are you able to say.. I have my quiet place. There is genuine love in this world, and step by step, inch by inch, those who believe in love and the UNIVERSE in and around us… will live in PEACE .

You have a choice…

Oyashikiri

The hidden door

If not for the little touch of red on the latch, I would have missed this door. I did include this door in another blog it was among other doors, and thought it deserved a feature of its own.

There are days when I want to blend in and disappear. Yes it happens to me, and I suspect each one of us at some time has had that feeling.. Where you just want the world to keep rolling along, so you can catch your breath, or simply veg.

Instead of worrying do something about it. It doesn’t help to over think situations such as “what if this happens?” or “Things might up that way” Instead be proactive and change how you see and do things in each situation.

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Sine my husband’s passing have found it very difficult to do some of the things that need doing. example. Going upstairs to his offices and going through paperwork. Clearing out furniture and objects has not been a problem, yet for some reason, the filing cabinets have been like the door above, I don’t seem them. If I do, I walk right by.

There are times in life, when we have to “see” the issue, and then do something about it. In my case I have asked for help. And today, I will go to church and pray, giving thanks for my blessings, and express my gratitude that I have friends to turn to, and of course, I KNOW that PL Precept # 11 Always be with God. God is always with me.

A friend passed on the other day, massive stroke, one day he was walking in the sunshine between tall trees on one of his favourite walking trails with a friend, the next day he was gone. He was liked by his friends because he always said, he was poor in material things, but had an abundance of riches spiritually and in his friendships. Caring, gentle and understanding, he will be missed by all who knew him.

Oyashikiri

Appreciation

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July 11th PL calendar –

Appreciate the Makoto (sincerity) of the people who came before you

Everything we have today was built upon the hard work of our ancestors and the people who came before us.  Always remember to be thankful and humble and continue to build on their past successes

Church is a spiritual home away from home, and a place to find your inner=self.

Service today is at 10 a.m

Reminder,  At church you can have a state of mind where you are able to open up yourself to God and candidly share what is bothering your minister(s)

Oyashikiri

ps.. when you share your life with people you love, don’t forget to let them know you value them, that you love them.  We only live once, when a moment passes, it does not come back for a replay (rerun)  Love is powerful and enduring,  be aware/respectful.  Always.   forever is a long time,

Quiet

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The other day, this pond was quiet, still.

Yesterday it was populated with a gaggle of ducks happily enjoying the sunshine of an early fall day.

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same location,   except in this picture I am on the other side of the little pond.

Before…  in  August

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Taken Saturday Sept 22.

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The only constant in life is change.   Life goes on.  Eliza’s post that I reposted to you just before writing this, caught my “mood” perfectly’.

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As one life ends, another begins  ——— one door closes, another opens.  This is what life is all about. new beginnings.

Oyashikiri

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Wednesday 11th.

prince Edward county fall 2011

Happy Ancestors’ Day everyone.  A month ago today, we had the service for Brian, it will be another couple of days, before he will have been “gone” two months.  Somehow, time has lost a place with me at the moment.  I am in a “temporary/holding” zone.  It is thanks to my wonderful friends, and thoughtful neighbours that I get through each day.

garden geishaI never know if I will be overwhelmed with an emotion, or find myself wrapped in a cloak of silence.

My friends seem to know just when to call or be present, for this I am truly grateful.  On the surface years of wearing a “public” persona,  has stood me well.  At times I feel like I am cast in stone, and watching the world go by, while other times…. the sunlight just quietly misses me, letting me hide in the shade.

I am thankful for who I am today, my world is evolving and changing, I am so appreciative of you my friends, who stand by me, help me in this time of such overwhelming emotions, uncertainty and uncharted tomorrows. Thank you.

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Be thankful for who you are today.

You are standing here thanks to your ancestors, your parents and those who have supported you throughout your life.  Show your appreciation, by giving back to the world around you.

Oyashikiri

Wednesday -noise

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Unwanted noise

beautiful trees ripped out

hedges disappear

in one day

single family home

gone

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quiet older community

invaded

trees that stood for years

home to  the “wild” life

city dwellers gone

no more sunlight

through vibrant branches

now, rumbling

loud mechanical noiseVal 2.10.17 postcard

Last year when my Mother was bidding farewell to her years on earth, my sister who was staying with her. Passed the time, drawing and colouring, memories of another time.

Change happen, with “progress” comes destruction, to “make way” for “infill”  buildings that are meant to fill in where older homes , single family homes with laneways, garages that held the cars that used to fit inside them, and usually have pretty front lawns, and backyards, big enough for small patios and gardens, either filled with flowers in season, or vegetables.

Now these homes when their owners pass away, are taken over by builders who tear them down, and put in two homes on a lot that was meant for one.  Usually, architecture that is cold and sterile.  Forget a lawn or garden spaces. Cement, pavement and more cold man-made materials, usually in various shades of grays and blacks.  Garages if there, are usually part of the main floor, still usually too small for the bigger cars of today, so they end up always outside parked on the single space of the paved front of the dwelling.

Sad, but that is progress. If you are near, or can easily get to green space.  Treasure it. Take the time to enjoy it. Listen to the birds when they visit (if they do) enjoy the fresh earthly smells of spring,  and watch as the young flowers unfold to embrace another season of “life”

Life, can be fleeting.  Live in the moment.  Enjoy each and every second of your day.  don’t wait till it fades away.

PL Precept #11    Always be with God.

PL Precept # 16  All things progress and develop.

PL #18  Each Moment is a turning point.

Oyashikiri

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