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PL calendar day 15

Live with firm determination,  that “this will turn out for the best” Everything in this world progresses and develops.  Always be positive, knowing that everything will turn out for the best

Someone once asked me did I ever get tired of being a “Pollyanna”  for those of you unfamiliar with that expression, it usually was used to describe someone who was always cheerful and looking for positives.  I like being happy, and I work towards that goal.  I sometimes miss the mark by a long mile and another times it takes only a smile to bring my happy back.

That does not mean that I don’t feel disappointment, and at times, totally sad and have no choice but to live through my emotion of that moment.  It passes, meanwhile, my body, my mind needed that cleansing.   PL Precept #5  One’s self is lost by being emotional    Live the moment and move on.

PL Precept #1  Life is Art

PL Precept #7  Everything exists in relativity

PL Principle #2  I will not have complaints about others, matters nor the weather.  Rather I will always be creative and will look for shortcomings in my own thinking and actions.

My love and appreciation to you all.

Oyashikiri

PL Precept #10  Love yourself and others

 

 

haunting beauty

IMG_7392walks in forgotten places

the whisper of the leaves

as they are temporarily displaced

by intruding footsteps

on the well-worn path

the memory haunts me

the path remains, but you are gone

no longer will we explore the unknown

for you have gone into the unknown

You have found peace forever more.

While I wait on the shore

listening for signs, that on earth, one day

peace and happiness will be found around the world

Till then, the haunting beauty will remind me of home

and the comfort of unconditional love, beyond here and into the unknown.

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PL Precept #14      World Peace is everything

PL Precept #15        All is a mirror

Oyashikiri

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inner travels

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I lay watching the slow rotation of the ceiling fan, a very lazy start to the day indeed. Keeper (female whippet) lay sprawled out beside me.  She was showing her nurturing side, concerned that today might be a repeat of yesterday.

IMG_1358She gets very concerned when I cry and wail.  Velcro (male whippet) her older brother, takes it in stride, he saw and lived through my display of raw emotion, when my husband was in his final days, and Keeper got out and ran away.  Yesterday he simply got up from his favourite chair in another part of the house, to come  lie beside me, to lend me his support and quietly wait it out.

IMG_1360My son the other day, looked at me, and said, ” Mom, its OK to cry”  and of course it is, but for me, I can’t just cry, I have to be  totally shaken and depleted, the body has to over-ride my happiness and stubborn mind that tells me, that there is just so much to be thankful for.  And of course there always is, I am so blessed.

However sometimes, the sadness, and discontent of others is too much for me to bear. I feel their pain, frustrations and disillusion.  And I have learned that I cannot be happy for someone else.  You can not lift the happiness from your life, like a shawl and put it around someone else. You can be kind, listen, share in their “present state” and lend what-ever support you can.

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In the end, the choice belongs to them.  Yesterday I cried, all the sadness, the disappointments that I have listened to for the last many days and months, welled up and demanded to be released. I wanted escape, and freedom from the continuous onslaught of negative news, the vicious nature that is surfacing in the world around us.  The curiosity we seem to have for the gossip tabloids, that thrive by reporting or should I say offering up gossip about cheating, lying and fornication.  Where we lust instead of love.

IMG_1365Time for some time out.  Quality time without a cell phone,  computer, laptop, or tablet. There is a reason, dogs (pets) are the best of friends.  They offer unconditional love. Nothing more, nothing less.

Cherish your family and friends, offer kindness and understanding to those around you, when there is unkindness, or dishonesty aimed in your direction. Deflect it, or let it pass you by.  Life is too short.

PL Calendar, day 26        Maintain a Positive Attitude and Wisdom will                                                   come to you.

Oyashikiri

 

mural is in Carleton Place, Ontario,CA

Quiet

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The other day, this pond was quiet, still.

Yesterday it was populated with a gaggle of ducks happily enjoying the sunshine of an early fall day.

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same location,   except in this picture I am on the other side of the little pond.

Before…  in  August

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Taken Saturday Sept 22.

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The only constant in life is change.   Life goes on.  Eliza’s post that I reposted to you just before writing this, caught my “mood” perfectly’.

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As one life ends, another begins  ——— one door closes, another opens.  This is what life is all about. new beginnings.

Oyashikiri

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Wednesday 11th.

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Happy Ancestors’ Day everyone.  A month ago today, we had the service for Brian, it will be another couple of days, before he will have been “gone” two months.  Somehow, time has lost a place with me at the moment.  I am in a “temporary/holding” zone.  It is thanks to my wonderful friends, and thoughtful neighbours that I get through each day.

garden geishaI never know if I will be overwhelmed with an emotion, or find myself wrapped in a cloak of silence.

My friends seem to know just when to call or be present, for this I am truly grateful.  On the surface years of wearing a “public” persona,  has stood me well.  At times I feel like I am cast in stone, and watching the world go by, while other times…. the sunlight just quietly misses me, letting me hide in the shade.

I am thankful for who I am today, my world is evolving and changing, I am so appreciative of you my friends, who stand by me, help me in this time of such overwhelming emotions, uncertainty and uncharted tomorrows. Thank you.

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Be thankful for who you are today.

You are standing here thanks to your ancestors, your parents and those who have supported you throughout your life.  Show your appreciation, by giving back to the world around you.

Oyashikiri

intertwined

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That day we walked back to the car, after being told that we had an aggressive cancer in our lives. I remember looking into the darkness of the floor of the wooded area, near where our truck was parked.

For some reason, this  patch of land was a place that I revisited often over the months that followed.  No, not physically, but in my mind’s eye.  I didn’t see flowers if they were blooming, it was the greenery, the trees, the open spaces between  them.

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The shadows that danced across the snow-covered floor between the trees, always I saw how nature blended and intermingled.  I didn’t know it at the time, but I feel it now.  As time passes, I miss my husband’s physical presence more and more, I feel him and hear his words in the strangest of places, or in the  landscapes I see that I pass along the way to “wherever”.

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The memory of our “togetherness” is intertwined with the nature that I see all around me.  Like the seasons, and the changing skies.  We are no longer as we were, but always, we will BE…  Unconditional love, is happiness, tears, joy and sorrow.  What a blessing to have been granted the experience of a love that while of this earth,  blossomed into forever.

Day 21   PL Calendar

A Thankful Person will Grow as an Individual

When you are able to have a thankful attitude, you will be blessed with good intuition and more enthusiasm, which will continue to move things in a positive direction.

Oyashikiri

 

being Thankful

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May 11.

The 11th of every month, in PL, we celebrate and give thanks to our ancestors, parents and those who supported us throughout our lives.

When the road ahead looks dark, we have to believe and have faith, that if it is the road ahead of us, and one we are meant to take, that it will be welcoming.

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There is always light.  God is always with us.

PL Precept #11  Always be with God

Oyashikiri

 

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