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haunting beauty

IMG_7392walks in forgotten places

the whisper of the leaves

as they are temporarily displaced

by intruding footsteps

on the well-worn path

the memory haunts me

the path remains, but you are gone

no longer will we explore the unknown

for you have gone into the unknown

You have found peace forever more.

While I wait on the shore

listening for signs, that on earth, one day

peace and happiness will be found around the world

Till then, the haunting beauty will remind me of home

and the comfort of unconditional love, beyond here and into the unknown.

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PL Precept #14      World Peace is everything

PL Precept #15        All is a mirror

Oyashikiri

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inner travels

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I lay watching the slow rotation of the ceiling fan, a very lazy start to the day indeed. Keeper (female whippet) lay sprawled out beside me.  She was showing her nurturing side, concerned that today might be a repeat of yesterday.

IMG_1358She gets very concerned when I cry and wail.  Velcro (male whippet) her older brother, takes it in stride, he saw and lived through my display of raw emotion, when my husband was in his final days, and Keeper got out and ran away.  Yesterday he simply got up from his favourite chair in another part of the house, to come  lie beside me, to lend me his support and quietly wait it out.

IMG_1360My son the other day, looked at me, and said, ” Mom, its OK to cry”  and of course it is, but for me, I can’t just cry, I have to be  totally shaken and depleted, the body has to over-ride my happiness and stubborn mind that tells me, that there is just so much to be thankful for.  And of course there always is, I am so blessed.

However sometimes, the sadness, and discontent of others is too much for me to bear. I feel their pain, frustrations and disillusion.  And I have learned that I cannot be happy for someone else.  You can not lift the happiness from your life, like a shawl and put it around someone else. You can be kind, listen, share in their “present state” and lend what-ever support you can.

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In the end, the choice belongs to them.  Yesterday I cried, all the sadness, the disappointments that I have listened to for the last many days and months, welled up and demanded to be released. I wanted escape, and freedom from the continuous onslaught of negative news, the vicious nature that is surfacing in the world around us.  The curiosity we seem to have for the gossip tabloids, that thrive by reporting or should I say offering up gossip about cheating, lying and fornication.  Where we lust instead of love.

IMG_1365Time for some time out.  Quality time without a cell phone,  computer, laptop, or tablet. There is a reason, dogs (pets) are the best of friends.  They offer unconditional love. Nothing more, nothing less.

Cherish your family and friends, offer kindness and understanding to those around you, when there is unkindness, or dishonesty aimed in your direction. Deflect it, or let it pass you by.  Life is too short.

PL Calendar, day 26        Maintain a Positive Attitude and Wisdom will                                                   come to you.

Oyashikiri

 

mural is in Carleton Place, Ontario,CA

Quiet

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The other day, this pond was quiet, still.

Yesterday it was populated with a gaggle of ducks happily enjoying the sunshine of an early fall day.

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same location,   except in this picture I am on the other side of the little pond.

Before…  in  August

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Taken Saturday Sept 22.

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The only constant in life is change.   Life goes on.  Eliza’s post that I reposted to you just before writing this, caught my “mood” perfectly’.

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As one life ends, another begins  ——— one door closes, another opens.  This is what life is all about. new beginnings.

Oyashikiri

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Wednesday 11th.

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Happy Ancestors’ Day everyone.  A month ago today, we had the service for Brian, it will be another couple of days, before he will have been “gone” two months.  Somehow, time has lost a place with me at the moment.  I am in a “temporary/holding” zone.  It is thanks to my wonderful friends, and thoughtful neighbours that I get through each day.

garden geishaI never know if I will be overwhelmed with an emotion, or find myself wrapped in a cloak of silence.

My friends seem to know just when to call or be present, for this I am truly grateful.  On the surface years of wearing a “public” persona,  has stood me well.  At times I feel like I am cast in stone, and watching the world go by, while other times…. the sunlight just quietly misses me, letting me hide in the shade.

I am thankful for who I am today, my world is evolving and changing, I am so appreciative of you my friends, who stand by me, help me in this time of such overwhelming emotions, uncertainty and uncharted tomorrows. Thank you.

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Be thankful for who you are today.

You are standing here thanks to your ancestors, your parents and those who have supported you throughout your life.  Show your appreciation, by giving back to the world around you.

Oyashikiri

intertwined

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That day we walked back to the car, after being told that we had an aggressive cancer in our lives. I remember looking into the darkness of the floor of the wooded area, near where our truck was parked.

For some reason, this  patch of land was a place that I revisited often over the months that followed.  No, not physically, but in my mind’s eye.  I didn’t see flowers if they were blooming, it was the greenery, the trees, the open spaces between  them.

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The shadows that danced across the snow-covered floor between the trees, always I saw how nature blended and intermingled.  I didn’t know it at the time, but I feel it now.  As time passes, I miss my husband’s physical presence more and more, I feel him and hear his words in the strangest of places, or in the  landscapes I see that I pass along the way to “wherever”.

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The memory of our “togetherness” is intertwined with the nature that I see all around me.  Like the seasons, and the changing skies.  We are no longer as we were, but always, we will BE…  Unconditional love, is happiness, tears, joy and sorrow.  What a blessing to have been granted the experience of a love that while of this earth,  blossomed into forever.

Day 21   PL Calendar

A Thankful Person will Grow as an Individual

When you are able to have a thankful attitude, you will be blessed with good intuition and more enthusiasm, which will continue to move things in a positive direction.

Oyashikiri

 

being Thankful

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May 11.

The 11th of every month, in PL, we celebrate and give thanks to our ancestors, parents and those who supported us throughout our lives.

When the road ahead looks dark, we have to believe and have faith, that if it is the road ahead of us, and one we are meant to take, that it will be welcoming.

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There is always light.  God is always with us.

PL Precept #11  Always be with God

Oyashikiri

 

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Bone soup

For anyone starting the new year with me, “chop suey” = a little of this and some of that.  When Chinese cooks came to America and needed to create similar dishes to their own,  What would be normal ingredients to them back  home, was not available in the very early years, they adapted, using what was readily available and what they could grow in their new home.

Bone Soup, this morning’s breakfast, I add an egg for protein,   The egg gives a rich taste to the broth.  Egg is raw, when the boiling water engulfs the noodles and covers the egg, it marinades together.  Yum

It is another cold day here.  Someone used the phrase “bone chilling”… that reminded me that I had Bone Soup packages, my breakfast was decided.  When I finish with my hot soup, I will make myself an ice coffee, with big fat ice cubes.  I have put the coffee outside for it to chill …. when I say I like it cold, I mean COLD.

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I found a small chess set yesterday that I thought the dolls could enjoy, and yes, they liked the idea.  My husband set up the board for them (I don’t play) and explained the game to them.  This I hope will keep them entertained over the week-end.  My friend Tanya who also does doll  displays I think is dressing her dolls for outdoor activities.  Brrrr.. for the dolls to go out, that means the human has to accompany them to set up the display.  Dolls are a creative pass-time…

When I wanted to be a fashion designer and model, I spent hours designing clothes and drawing the models to wear them.  Today, I still like to do set designs, and make up stories for the “dolls”  to  portray.  With our down sizing, I have had to part with a lot of “this and that”  Some dolls had to be given up for adoption, they didn’t really work into my story telling.

The positive about downsizing, is that we are finding things we had long forgotten we had, or we knew we had .. but didn’t know where they were… sound familiar.

roller skatesMy roller skates didn’t have pink wheels, but I did have pink laces.  I would still go roller skating if we had the kind I am used to.  Mind you .. in my day we skated in special roller rinks, that were covered, and had hardwood floors.  Before my time, they had bands that played for the skaters, by the time I was into skating, there was an organist who would play from 8 – 10 sometimes 11 for those of us who wanted to dance (on skates).  Two steps and waltzes.

Later of course we had the disco phase.. where there were special skating places with disco music and lights.  Usually big open rooms, where the figure skaters could do their spins and fancy solo footwork in the middle while the rest of us went around and around in time to the music.

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My sister always groans when she sees my posts with abandoned buildings or old rusted out relics… but to me they are like memories.  they spark my imagination.  This one I received in a Pintrest notice.  I have a board on Pinterest of “Once upon a time” places …Their software searches out “like” pictures from other posts, and send them to me to see if they interest me.

You have all seen the pictures I share with you of the places I find when my husband and I are touring the roads. I like character, history, and places that show a bit of eccentricity, personality .. even with the passing of time, the facial reconstruction done by nature these places still maintain an aura that compels and second look, maybe even a third and fourth.

Heading out soon, have errands to run, wanted to share a few minutes with you, say hello, and wish you all the best as you carry on with your day.  If my friend North is out there, bundle up, some of that cold northern air you enjoyed, is wanting to bring you memories of days gone by .. but in doing so… is colouring our area too.

I heard last night, that the warmer air is on its way.   Yay, a change will be nice.  Drive carefully, where there is snow there is white out.  If you are in a place that is sunny and warm… close your eyes and send a bit this way… wink.. imagination goes a long way, believing, makes it happen.

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Loving hugs being sent your way..

Oyashikiri

 

roller skates and abandoned building – Pinterest

 

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