Wednesday
Hors d’oeuvres – Onion Bhaji with Tamarind sauce
It is not often I allow myself the luxury of picking these delicious delights up, but after last night I felt I deserved something special. If anyone knows what the country of origin is for these tasty morsels I would appreciate it if you could let me know. I came across them about a year or so ago, there was a package on sale at a local specialty food shop … I thought why not… I was feeling adventurous.. I was not prepared for just how much I would enjoy them. I suspect they are laden with calories.. so I don’t allow myself the luxury, especially when prices have gone up so much. I eat them cold right out of the packaging. (they are found in the fresh food deli section .)
What happened last night. Grief,, sorrow, delayed reaction to the loss of my precious Canaille.
Canaille was a Porti (Portuguese Water Dog) who stole my heart the moment I met her. She and I bonded like nothing I had ever experienced before. We went everywhere together, she was my constant companion, My husband graciously allowed her to sleep with us, he knew there was no parting us.
When he was diagnosed with terminal cancer with only a very limited time to live, I rushed home to get documents they needed at the hospital and get personal items he needed. When I got home, she was having a stroke… I rushed her to the vet… and… well… you know the rest… it was a devasting day for me, but I needed to move forward. I never had time to properly grieve for her… Then recently a friend sent me pictures he found on an old disk I had given him… the above picture was what he sent me… Its been 8 years but the blinding grief, hit me so suddenly it was like it happened yesterday. We can’t go back, life moves on… but …. the hurt, the sorrow, the stabbing reality of the loss …. has shaken me to the core.
Life is fleeting, please… don’t squander time with loved ones… cherish the moments you get to hold them, share time with them… when its gone, there is nothing left but the memory.
Today’s message..
Offer your services instead of expecting from others.
Take the initiative to do what you can to help others. Understand their needs and act swiftly.
PL2020.14
Although the tongue weighs very little, few people are able to hold it. (God’s little devotional book)
Oyashikiri
She gets very concerned when I cry and wail. Velcro (male whippet) her older brother, takes it in stride, he saw and lived through my display of raw emotion, when my husband was in his final days, and Keeper got out and ran away. Yesterday he simply got up from his favourite chair in another part of the house, to come lie beside me, to lend me his support and quietly wait it out.
My son the other day, looked at me, and said, ” Mom, its OK to cry” and of course it is, but for me, I can’t just cry, I have to be totally shaken and depleted, the body has to over-ride my happiness and stubborn mind that tells me, that there is just so much to be thankful for. And of course there always is, I am so blessed.
Time for some time out. Quality time without a cell phone, computer, laptop, or tablet. There is a reason, dogs (pets) are the best of friends. They offer unconditional love. Nothing more, nothing less.
dymoonblog 
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on December 7, 2013