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my heart!

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What started out as a very nice day, time with a friend, finding a stamp I needed for a series of cards I’m working on.  Asked I would have said, life is good.

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A short time later, we got a phone call, one that changed the “colour” of the day. A clerk from the hospital, left a message that due to what they saw as a heart problem, the scheduled surgery (coming Tuesday) was cancelled, lots to discuss, please call>?? You can understand, this was a rather startling and disturbing message.

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We called back, only to discover, that the young lady, had not really gotten her information all updated and ready to dispense prior to calling.  For months now we have been going for treatments, followed and taken every required tests asked for. Now 5 days away from the 1st surgery, they had found a heart problem. Never had we even had an inkling of a heart problem, not even a murmur of one.   Needless to say, it was not a very quiet inducing conversation.

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What we discovered was that, at the time my husband was there for the tests, they should have asked for a cardiologist right then and there to have a look.  With a week-end looming, we are on hold.  That a heart problem would surface over night, is rather puzzling.  Anyway, we wait.

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My head tells me that if his entire life, he has not had one symptom, or whisper of a heart problem…then… I have to trust that precaution is important.  this is a very serious, major operation, the positive, is that they are making every effort to cover all bases.

Please join me in prayer and positive thoughts.  His main surgery date of Dec. 13th. is still in place.  There is an urgent request that he been seen as soon as possible. We wait. We pray.    PL Precept #11  Always be with God.

Oyashikiri

PL Precept # 17  Grasp what is most essential..

PL Precept  # 16  All things progress and develop

PL Precept #18  Each moment is a turning point.

across from Wagner home NY state

Manaus, Brazil

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What brings me to Manaus, Brazil?  A book I picked up because I saw on the back cover that it was about a young girl who travelled to Brazil.  It is one of those “ah” moments when you are wandering down an aisle in a shop and your eye falls on a object, or in this case, a book, and you know you want to see it more closely.

The book is Journey to the River Sea, by Eva Ibbotson.  It was runner up for the Whitbread Children’s Book of the year and the Guardian Fiction Award.  I glanced at it this afternoon, sat down and read it through till the end.   I had not expected to spend the afternoon reading, but that is exactly what I did.

I was transported to a land I know only from various media presentations, the story line, the characters, it was a perfect blend of words presented in such a way that my imagination created the visuals.

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I was travelling along down the Amazon (the River Sea), seeing where the brown waters of the Amazon joined the black waters of the river Negro.. where soon after the main character saw the green and gold dome of the theatre and church spires.  It was wonderful to be able to totally immerse myself for a short time in the adventure of a young girl, and her friends.

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There were no pictures in the book, I found the pictures you see here, on the net. To be a young girl, who due to circumstances is off to live in Brazil, with distant family she has never met… (from England)…. you know… there are many possibilities, the author is skilled at her craft.  I will have to seek out more of  her stories.

PL Precept #17  Grasp what is most essential

The story held me captive for hours. At first I wanted to know what was it, what held my attention, then a thought popped up.. Could it be, my mind needed a rest from the chattering of nonsense and noise that has been whirling around me of late… my husband had his last chemo session today, and soon it will be his last radiation treatment.  Then we rest, and prepare for the surgeries.

PL Precept # 12   Everything  has a way according to its name

PL Precept #7  Everything exists in relativity.

Isn’t life beautiful… PL Precept # 11   Always be with GOD

Oyashikiri

Thursday -mystery

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Happy Thursday morning all.

I went to take a picture yesterday of a door.  That was my intention, unfortunately, I drove by, missed the laneway, and could not get back.  It was rush hour in Ottawa, and for some reason, where usually traffic flowing west on this road, is usually pretty good at this time of day, yesterday it wasn’t.  Missed opportunity.  I will go back another time.

Last night, looking for something else, look what I found.  No, no way it is a door, but gall darn, could I figure out what it was.   I know it is familiar.  but it just wouldn’t come to me.  Certainly I was intrigued.

This morning with a new day on the horizon, I had a “bingo” moment.

Here is a second picture the elf in my camera took.

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How I managed this, I’ll have to ponder on a bit longer.  Does anyone out there, recognized what this is?

Life is full of surprises.  We need only take out our phones sometimes, to discover a whole new world.  For sure we meet new friends  =^_^=   My Chinese name, associates me with the moon, I believe that a “moon spirit” has drifted into my virtual world……

=^_^=  sunshine smiles to everyone today.  May your day be blessed with the happiness and joyful memories that last today, tomorrow and always.

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Our thanks to you all for your prayers, and healing thoughts, my husband begins his “treatments” next week, starting on Monday.  23 days of radiation and 5 weeks of chemo.  We appreciate each and everyone of you!



Oyashikiri



 

tired takes on new meaning

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This was a picture a did a while back.  I titled it, Dragon Soft, you’ve  seen it before shortly after I painted it.  As sometimes happens, I paint something put it away, and don’t look at it again, till doing something else I come across it.

Today we are moving into several weeks into the journey of our cancer voyage.  Each day is a new day, nd every day, I am blessed with the kind words, and messages of friends who remind me that they are holding us in their prayers and sending healing vibes our way.

It is an amazing feeling to know that there is such caring and thoughtfulness surrounding us.  I appreciate it especially when out of the blue, I am struck down with an over-whelming feeling of “tired”.  It is like nothing I’ve ever known, and I really can’t describe it.  Everything just seems to grind to a halt.. and I NEED.. to sit down, close my eyes, and just wait for the moment to pass.

When my husband is out, I find I’m waiting for him to come home, just so I know he is safe.  I know that over the course of the next weeks, even months.. I will be inconsistent with my blog.  I beg your patience.  I am eternally grateful for your continued friendships and support.

Oyashikiri

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When cancer calls

nature bells corners SAWe’ve had some time now to think about and mull over the “visitor” we have in our home.  We didn’t go looking for our house guest, but then I don’t think that many people go in search of inviting cancer into their lives.

I personally have had to think about how I am reacting to (relating) to this visitor.  It is not a welcome guest, but… it is here, and we have to deal with it best we can.  I like to drive down country roads, when I want to think and talk to my “self”  Ottawa is a good place to be, since in almost any direction I go, I can be in country spaces surrounded by green space and untamed vegetation.

nature bells corners SA1There is a hodge podge of this and that.  nothing is planned, it just happens.  A patch of flowers, different shapes, sizes and colours of greens all come together to allow for crickets and critters of various shapes and species to mingle and cross paths.

nature bells corners SA2I’ve decided that cancer just didn’t happen, it found its way in, and was allowed to settle in grow and fester.  Ownership has to be taken for this.  Only in accepting this fact, can we move on and make friends with it.  Find out what it will take for it to go away, and then work faithfully, and with dedicated purpose to ease it out of our lives.

nature bells corners SA3Look carefully, there is a path.  It is hidden if you just glance, but if you take your time and look … you will find a way, a path to follow.  Life is always open to change.  Prayer and faith are the most direct path in our connection/relationship to/with God/Universe.  I believe that whatever the outcome, it will be what is best.

nature bells corners SA4Cancer is a world changer, we are blessed that we found out in time, that it had come into our lives.  Knowing, means that now we can work with the specialists and take the necessary steps to improve our lives, and work positively towards a healthier outlook and lifestyle.

Nature is not stubborn, it is resilient.  Acceptance and grasping the opportunity for change positively, will help us flow with the seasons.

PL Precept # 15  All is a mirror

PL Precept 11  Always be with God

PL Precept #18  Each moment is a turning point.

Oyashikiri

 

Thank you Thank you

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Faith and Prayer

I was so overcome with emotion when I saw all your comments and encouragement on FB about our recent loss (Canaille) and my husband’s cancer.  We know we are facing a long road ahead, the treatment will be aggressive.

Your thoughtful words of encouragement, and empathy for our situation, is so heart warming.

Each day is a new beginning, tomorrow we hope for word on just what the team of doctors have  laid out as a game plan.

I feel so blessed to have shared time on this planet with each and everyone on of you. You are part of my happiness and joy.

Knowing and feeling the healing energy that is being sent our way, is a balm…

I pray that the Universe will embrace each of you with heaven-sent blessings.

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Oyashikiri

PL Precept 11  Always be with God
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Cancer can

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Cancer can turn your life around

it can throw what you have known as reality

into a different dimension.

” What kind of cancer “, someone will ask..

personally, even though we have been told, it doesn’t matter

What matters is it has to e dealt  with..

Here is a little tidbit from today’s adventure,

Yesterday I had to do a small laundry, and decided to do it by hand,

hang it outside to dry, we’ve had a couple of beautiful days .. perfect

for laundry.  I anticipated that fresh smell one gets from clothes hung out to dry,

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I got half my wish, one article, the one that I was waiting for, was dry, but a bird had flown over and left its signature on it.  All that came to mind when I saw it, was that “Nature” had a sense of humour, but I wasn’t laughing.

What else to do .. but… come in and wash it all over again.  The other item which I had washed .. just because, was linen fresh, and daisy clean.

I think dealing with cancer will be pretty much the same… It happens, it’s ours, now we have to simply deal with it.  It will be a new adventure for both of us.  My husband has had a wonderful attitude, positive and bright.  Together we will see it through.

Again, thank you all for being so wonderfully supportive.  We ARE, all ONE.

PL Precept # 12  Everything has a way according to its Name.

PL Precept #15  All is a Mirror

Cancer can bring people closer together, in PL we say Kamuwaza (God’s Act) … is part of life.

What can bring out the best in people, cancer can.

Oyashikiri

love, light, laughter, appreciation, faith, and gratitude make them part of your day, everyday, no matter what….

 

Pictures taken on the grounds of the Montfort Hospital, Ontario.Canada

 

 

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