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be calm

velcro 9.11.17

PL Calendar day 17

Be Calm, Be Kind without compromising

Hesitating to share our true feelings hurts not only ourselves but others.  While respecting the other person’s feelings say what you need to say.


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Life is what we make of it.  Life is full of challenges and opportunities.  Seize the day, make every second count.

Thank you to each and every one of you who has taken the time to write and ask me how my husband is doing.  There is nothing more that can be done to “stall” or “stop” the cancer.. it is doing what it has set its mind to do.

My husband we hope will come home this week for palliative care with a team of health care workers who come to the home, including a palliative care physician. Should it get to be too much to handle in the home environment, we will move on to the next step .

Blessings to each and every one of you.  Your caring, your support, is so appreciated. We hold you near and dear, each ray of energy you send our way is caught up and embraced with love.  We return the love to you a hundred fold. OYASHIKIRI

think Positive

 

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This particular cancer is hard to treat, it is very aggressive    Think Positive

  1. Let’s try to stop it if we can from growing further            Think Positive
  2. Sorry that didn’t work,  we can try another treatment     Think Positive
  3. Body is so frail, treatments have to be stopped                  Think Positive
  4. A Blood clot has been found                                                    Think Positive
  5.  In looking to see how the cancer may have spread, we have discovered that there I water on the lung, and there is an infection.                       Think Positive

Good evening everyone, the above are words that we have been hearing for the last many months. #5 is what we were told today.  I picked up the PL Calendar for the 29th.

Be Cheerful and Easygoing

Everything has a way of turning out alright in the end.  Relax and always try to Think Positively.

How we deal with challenges that come our way, determines a lot, about how we enjoy our days, and if we are able to Think Positively.

My husband and I both would have liked the scenes we are living to be somewhat different, however, they are not.  They are what they are.  We do our best to encourage others around us, help them find their way in the “stories” that they are living.  We also make time for “us” … and our personal “selves”

The messenger doesn’t  always bring “good news”, but every one is doing their best, and that is really all one can ask. When we get over whelmed, we accept that moment, and rest.  No regrets or misgivings.  Tomorrow is another day. when it arrives, we will deal with it, one step at a time.

Whatever the outcome, knowing we have done all we can do.  When the time comes for the day to come to an end.  We will know we did our best.  Meanwhile, we enjoy each other, and know we’ve come a long way, each being whole, when sharing with the other.

This is VERY POSITIVE.

Oyashikiri

We are so grateful that you are part of our lives.  You are appreciated, each and every one of YOU.

10.17 mickey

death and dying

For me, mixed media 4.18.17

I was chatting with friend the other day,  since cancer is now factored into my life, we were discussing how people react to the word. It was interesting to note, that when I said that cancer was much like being told you are diabetic.  She did not agree.  Her reasoning was that cancer usually  meant death.  I understood that she felt that being diabetic your chances were much better. Diabetes is known as the silent killer.

We are born to die.  Death is something we all face.  A perfectly healthy person, can drop dead without warning.  Perhaps they were borderline.. high blood pressure, maybe it was cholesterol, or like my husband, out of nowhere, after living a lifetime with his heart, and never having a problem,  he was told, he  had an irregular heart beat and it was problamatic to his cancer treatments ?

I fail to see why cancer gets top billing, and why because someone gets the cancer card, it is deemed gloom and doom.  Sure there are difficult times, but someone with a gall bladder issue, will be driven almost insane with the pain that they endure till something is done about it.  A kidney stone,  is not a joking matter either.  And ladies, how about that 9th month party of labour pain and the utter joy of the delivery room.

Cancer is a wicked surprise, and it is a challenge, however, we still go to bed each night and wake every morning.  How we choose to make use of our time while we are awake and greeting the day, is our choice.  The love of life, and the understanding that this is not the time to squander our moments, means that life is full.  Love continues to grow and shine it’s light into our activities.

There is an appreciation of the blessings that we have been able to share, and continue to share.

There is no escaping death, whatever circumstances we find ourselves in, we are alive, and we will continue to live until the day/night comes when we go beyond what is here and now.  Then, we will be forever/always.

No more, no less.

 

Oyashikiri

 

today 1.7.18

violetGood Morning everyone…

I am working on a new project, this is how far I’ve progressed since the other day.  Working with the medium I am using I prefer to let the layers dry before I move on to other layers.

Plus the layer I am working on might have to be done in stages since it is  “come as you are” inspiration.  Meaning, I work on it when I am “feeling it”  Some projects get finished others do not.  Simple fact.  I long ago learned that I am happiest living in the moment.  I am not a planner in the sense that I map out what I will  do next fall, or next year.

As it turns out this has become a blessing for me.  My husband having been diagnosed with an aggressive cancer, we live each day, happy to start a day, and to once again share the happiness of  being together.  Every day is a huge blessing, one we are grateful and thankful for.

In the book “the power of kindness” by Piero Ferrucci, he  has 2 lines that stands out for me.  “To remember is to live.  To forget is to die”

In PL we have the 21st precept.  Live in Perfect Liberty.

Today we start another day, I wish you joy, happiness and all that you desire to make it a memorable one.

Till soon Q

Oyashikiri

my heart!

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What started out as a very nice day, time with a friend, finding a stamp I needed for a series of cards I’m working on.  Asked I would have said, life is good.

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A short time later, we got a phone call, one that changed the “colour” of the day. A clerk from the hospital, left a message that due to what they saw as a heart problem, the scheduled surgery (coming Tuesday) was cancelled, lots to discuss, please call>?? You can understand, this was a rather startling and disturbing message.

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We called back, only to discover, that the young lady, had not really gotten her information all updated and ready to dispense prior to calling.  For months now we have been going for treatments, followed and taken every required tests asked for. Now 5 days away from the 1st surgery, they had found a heart problem. Never had we even had an inkling of a heart problem, not even a murmur of one.   Needless to say, it was not a very quiet inducing conversation.

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What we discovered was that, at the time my husband was there for the tests, they should have asked for a cardiologist right then and there to have a look.  With a week-end looming, we are on hold.  That a heart problem would surface over night, is rather puzzling.  Anyway, we wait.

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My head tells me that if his entire life, he has not had one symptom, or whisper of a heart problem…then… I have to trust that precaution is important.  this is a very serious, major operation, the positive, is that they are making every effort to cover all bases.

Please join me in prayer and positive thoughts.  His main surgery date of Dec. 13th. is still in place.  There is an urgent request that he been seen as soon as possible. We wait. We pray.    PL Precept #11  Always be with God.

Oyashikiri

PL Precept # 17  Grasp what is most essential..

PL Precept  # 16  All things progress and develop

PL Precept #18  Each moment is a turning point.

across from Wagner home NY state

Manaus, Brazil

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What brings me to Manaus, Brazil?  A book I picked up because I saw on the back cover that it was about a young girl who travelled to Brazil.  It is one of those “ah” moments when you are wandering down an aisle in a shop and your eye falls on a object, or in this case, a book, and you know you want to see it more closely.

The book is Journey to the River Sea, by Eva Ibbotson.  It was runner up for the Whitbread Children’s Book of the year and the Guardian Fiction Award.  I glanced at it this afternoon, sat down and read it through till the end.   I had not expected to spend the afternoon reading, but that is exactly what I did.

I was transported to a land I know only from various media presentations, the story line, the characters, it was a perfect blend of words presented in such a way that my imagination created the visuals.

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I was travelling along down the Amazon (the River Sea), seeing where the brown waters of the Amazon joined the black waters of the river Negro.. where soon after the main character saw the green and gold dome of the theatre and church spires.  It was wonderful to be able to totally immerse myself for a short time in the adventure of a young girl, and her friends.

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There were no pictures in the book, I found the pictures you see here, on the net. To be a young girl, who due to circumstances is off to live in Brazil, with distant family she has never met… (from England)…. you know… there are many possibilities, the author is skilled at her craft.  I will have to seek out more of  her stories.

PL Precept #17  Grasp what is most essential

The story held me captive for hours. At first I wanted to know what was it, what held my attention, then a thought popped up.. Could it be, my mind needed a rest from the chattering of nonsense and noise that has been whirling around me of late… my husband had his last chemo session today, and soon it will be his last radiation treatment.  Then we rest, and prepare for the surgeries.

PL Precept # 12   Everything  has a way according to its name

PL Precept #7  Everything exists in relativity.

Isn’t life beautiful… PL Precept # 11   Always be with GOD

Oyashikiri

Thursday -mystery

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Happy Thursday morning all.

I went to take a picture yesterday of a door.  That was my intention, unfortunately, I drove by, missed the laneway, and could not get back.  It was rush hour in Ottawa, and for some reason, where usually traffic flowing west on this road, is usually pretty good at this time of day, yesterday it wasn’t.  Missed opportunity.  I will go back another time.

Last night, looking for something else, look what I found.  No, no way it is a door, but gall darn, could I figure out what it was.   I know it is familiar.  but it just wouldn’t come to me.  Certainly I was intrigued.

This morning with a new day on the horizon, I had a “bingo” moment.

Here is a second picture the elf in my camera took.

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How I managed this, I’ll have to ponder on a bit longer.  Does anyone out there, recognized what this is?

Life is full of surprises.  We need only take out our phones sometimes, to discover a whole new world.  For sure we meet new friends  =^_^=   My Chinese name, associates me with the moon, I believe that a “moon spirit” has drifted into my virtual world……

=^_^=  sunshine smiles to everyone today.  May your day be blessed with the happiness and joyful memories that last today, tomorrow and always.

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Our thanks to you all for your prayers, and healing thoughts, my husband begins his “treatments” next week, starting on Monday.  23 days of radiation and 5 weeks of chemo.  We appreciate each and everyone of you!



Oyashikiri



 

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