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Hors d’oeuvres – Onion Bhaji with Tamarind sauce

It is not often I allow myself the luxury of picking these delicious delights up, but after last night I felt I deserved something special. If anyone knows what the country of origin is for these tasty morsels I would appreciate it if you could let me know. I came across them about a year or so ago, there was a package on sale at a local specialty food shop … I thought why not… I was feeling adventurous.. I was not prepared for just how much I would enjoy them. I suspect they are laden with calories.. so I don’t allow myself the luxury, especially when prices have gone up so much. I eat them cold right out of the packaging. (they are found in the fresh food deli section .)

What happened last night. Grief,, sorrow, delayed reaction to the loss of my precious Canaille.

Canaille was a Porti (Portuguese Water Dog) who stole my heart the moment I met her. She and I bonded like nothing I had ever experienced before. We went everywhere together, she was my constant companion, My husband graciously allowed her to sleep with us, he knew there was no parting us.

When he was diagnosed with terminal cancer with only a very limited time to live, I rushed home to get documents they needed at the hospital and get personal items he needed. When I got home, she was having a stroke… I rushed her to the vet… and… well… you know the rest… it was a devasting day for me, but I needed to move forward. I never had time to properly grieve for her… Then recently a friend sent me pictures he found on an old disk I had given him… the above picture was what he sent me… Its been 8 years but the blinding grief, hit me so suddenly it was like it happened yesterday. We can’t go back, life moves on… but …. the hurt, the sorrow, the stabbing reality of the loss …. has shaken me to the core.

Life is fleeting, please… don’t squander time with loved ones… cherish the moments you get to hold them, share time with them… when its gone, there is nothing left but the memory.

Today’s message..

Offer your services instead of expecting from others.

Take the initiative to do what you can to help others. Understand their needs and act swiftly.

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Although the tongue weighs very little, few people are able to hold it. (God’s little devotional book)

Oyashikiri

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mourning – Ancestors day

a lighthouse in the rain

My mind still talks to you

my heart still looks for you

My soul knows you are at peace

I thank God for having had you

but I still miss you so much!

My niece knew yesterday that I was in having a difficult time… she sent me this quote she found on all-great quotes.com. I saw it only this morning. and yes, the above is all so true.

Ancestors day is celebrated on the 11th of every month in PL Today is the 11th. Service is at 10 a.m.

Oyashikiri

PL calendar day 11 – Remember to be thankful and humble. Appreciate the Makoto (sincerity) of the people who came before you.

But let there be spaces in your togetherness and let the winds of the heavens dance between you. Love one another but make not a bond of love. Let it rather be a moving sea between the shores of your souls Khalil Gibran

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lost and found

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If I were an object, I would say I was lost

if broken I would hope to be fixed

found by a stranger, I hope they would rescue me

but, \I am not an object,

I am not lost, nor am I broken

So I don’t need to be found, or fixed

Life is not playing a trick on me

I am in mourning, lost in my own thoughts

realizing that I am in uncharted territory

like a butterfly I am buffeted by the wind

there is no place to hide

on the outside I shimmer and shine

while inside I dip and dive

from the sublime to mediocre moments

while I wait for the painful reality of now

becomes tomorrow

and another day.

I miss what was

no more no less

Do I feel stressed, no, but tonight I am sad, in May it will be a year since my husband passed…I am overwhelmed at times, at just how much awareness I have of how love is a blessing in all its forms. Thank you my dearest friends, when you reach out, it is a balm and a reminder that love is Universal – You are appreciated and fill my heart with gratitude. I love you!

PL Precept # 11 Always be with God

PL Precept #18 Each moment is a turning point

Oyashikiri

butterfly – by Zky

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meaning – loss

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What?? I don’t know, back in 2015 I saw this photo and was intrigued at what it was, what it meant, where it came from. If I found out, I didn’t record it, so in my files this is what I found, now Feb. 24. 2019

Doing a tidy up, I found a card a group of friends sent me when my husband passed away, “on the loss of your husband” Store bought, from the American Greeting co. in the States, I reread the message.

“They say life goes on just give yourself time to mourn, and accept and to heal, Though none of that offers much comfort right now with the sorrow and loss you must feel… but, there in your heart where you miss him the most where friendship and love never cease, somehow you know that he’d want nothing more than to see you find comfort and peace”

As I digested the words of sympathy my friends had sent me, my eyes fell on today’s PL calendar, for day 24

Things that happen to us all have a meaning

Everything that happens to us happens for a reason. Each and every occurrence is a chance for you to improve yourself.

It is with gratitude that I start my day, and appreciation for you my friends who keep in touch, drop in, the distance, the miles, time zones, disappear, when I say I appreciate each and every one of you. I do. My heart sings with joy when you say hi… the like button, the thoughtful hellos, and cheerful input, the nudge now and then, all blessings.

“I have walked that long road to freedom. I have tried not to falter; I have made missteps along the way. But I have discovered the secret that after climbing a great hill, one only finds that there are many more hills to climb. ” Nelson Mandela

We are all ONE with the Universe

Oyashikiri