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Wednesday 11th.

prince Edward county fall 2011

Happy Ancestors’ Day everyone.  A month ago today, we had the service for Brian, it will be another couple of days, before he will have been “gone” two months.  Somehow, time has lost a place with me at the moment.  I am in a “temporary/holding” zone.  It is thanks to my wonderful friends, and thoughtful neighbours that I get through each day.

garden geishaI never know if I will be overwhelmed with an emotion, or find myself wrapped in a cloak of silence.

My friends seem to know just when to call or be present, for this I am truly grateful.  On the surface years of wearing a “public” persona,  has stood me well.  At times I feel like I am cast in stone, and watching the world go by, while other times…. the sunlight just quietly misses me, letting me hide in the shade.

I am thankful for who I am today, my world is evolving and changing, I am so appreciative of you my friends, who stand by me, help me in this time of such overwhelming emotions, uncertainty and uncharted tomorrows. Thank you.

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Be thankful for who you are today.

You are standing here thanks to your ancestors, your parents and those who have supported you throughout your life.  Show your appreciation, by giving back to the world around you.

Oyashikiri

owl or beetle

Tin man June 25

an owl or a beetle

in the end it was neither,

instead the rusted tin man emerge

and I heaved a sigh of relief

with the decision made,

I could go on with my day

the sun is high

a heat wave is on its way

it is not good-bye

cuz somewhere in your day

I will pop in and

click or hoot

a boo

at YOU

Have a wonderful start to a sunny happy long week-end if you are in Canada, if in another part of the world, enjoy the moments from sunrise, to sunset and the twinkling  winking beyond… Hooooooooooooooo Hoooooooooooooo loves you..-^+^-   I do!

Oyashikiri

owl

Pl Precept #10    Love Yourself and Others

 

quiet please

 

flowers PA5We are lucky to have a “Free Library” on our street.  There are a couple in the neighbourhood.  I’ve had a peak once or twice, but haven’t had the time to take advantage of the possibilities.

I have been looking for a book to read, but even though we have a ton of books in the house, it is interesting, that I found the interesting enough when I bought them, way back when, but today, they hold no interest. None.  I pick one up, read the summary and put it back down.  I found one that is a mystery, the detectives are sheep???? what???? when I got that, or where I got it, I have no idea.

Today is anther day, full of promise.  Let’s see what is in “store” for me today.  Life is full of surprises.  Another present?  Another discovery?

Till Next time

Oyashikiri

PL day 25 (calendar)

There is no reason to hold back

If you skimp on the paint, then your painting will not turn out well.  Live a fulfilled life every day by utilizing things, money, your knowledge or energy to their fullest

wanna dance

Bruno Mars

Sometimes I wonder how my brain functions.  It was bedtime.  need to shut down and rest… The above link will take you to what I decided to watch to wind down. Duh, is this a case of “mixed emotions” or a tiny bit of “silly”

Bruno Mars is an “energy” that encourages me to get up and dance, move, keep fit, he makes it all look so effortless, but of course, we all know that such dexterity and co-ordination comes with hard work and practice.

The lazy me, knows that I won’t retain ease of motion if I sit around all day, and the “smart” me knows that right now…  I can use some “slowing down”.. BUT whether I feel like it or not, I need to stay fit.  So…. today, I may not get up and dance, but I will do my steps… walk, one foot in front of the other, and step step step.

How about you?  Are you making time for YOU.  or….. are you letting the world hold you down, and not looking ahead…… come on….  move it!

*********** #15  (Perfect Liberty calendar)

BEING ATTENTIVE MAKES LIFE MORE ENJOYABLE

Live life paying careful attention to every detail be it big or small.  By doing so, you will be able to experience the subtle joy in things.

fabric friend got for her

Oyashikiri

lost? in place

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No, not lost where you don’t know where you are, just “lost” when you stand in one place and feel that at that moment, you are in many places.  The shadows, the lush vegetation, the multiple shades of green.  AND of course the almost hidden old wooden building in the background.

My adventure companion and I had arrived in Merrickville, her for ice cream, and me, for no real reason but to share time with a friend and enjoy the outing.  Then I saw this place and was instantly transported to many places at once. I saw New Hampshire, the Laurentians, southern NY state, it was an amazing feeling, it  wrapped itself in a hug and vanished,

Such moments are not uncommon, but they are not “ordinary” we have to be tuned in to “receive the frequency”.  Be present in your every day life.  Live each moment!                 Live with appreciation .. give thanks!

PL day 11 (calendar)

BE THANKFUL FOR WHO YOU ARE TODAY

You are standing here thanks to your ancestors, your parents and those who have supported you through your life.  Show your appreciation by giving back to the world around you.

Oyashikiri

what to do?

memory candle for Brian

What to do when your day starts with a “bang” (unpleasant one) and then more or less continues on in similar fashion.  During the 10 a.m service today, (Day of Peace) I found myself crying thinking of what happened early before I got to the church.

The dog got his tail chopped off by a closing door.  My precious baby.. yelped,  then I saw the piece of tail on the floor and the trail of blood as he escaped into the house.  Such misery, such helplessness.. I could only react. Meanwhile his sister who is white, was now looking like a red dalmatian and blood was everywhere, on me and on the carpets. Didn’t matter all I wanted to do was pick him up and hold him to me… of course that did wonders for my outfit.  When I finally got to church, I realized that I still had blood on me, and my clothes.  What a sight.

Fortunately the vet made a house call.  I was so relieved.  We are all resting comfortably,  the human will be taking to her bed very early. Oh dear, just remembered have to check on the laundry.  Used cold water. back.. looks like all the stains came out. ahh sigh.

PL Calendar, day 2    Be Forever young and seek new challenges

The world is constantly in motion and never rests.  Keep your senses sharp and be ready to adapt to the ever-changing world.

During all of today’s “activities”, I picked up the memory candle from the Funeral home, isn’t it pretty, there is a small compartment that is sealed under it.  During the service, the candle is lit.  I had never seen these before.  I am comforted that it is home with me now.

Life is what it is.  I need to slow down, and let my journey set the pace for peaceful healing.

Oyashikiri

PL Precept #11    Always be with God

 

Thank you!

adrift in time, even when present

sky in norway

A friend took this picture in Norway recently, I asked for permission to use it.  When I saw it, I felt that it mirrored my very BEing.

The reflection of the clouds in the water, the distant shore, the elevation, shadows, and quiet that  presented itself to me, was so hauntingly beautiful.

I felt blanketed by a calm that caressed and descended into every pore of my existence.  This moment of perfection, the harmonizing of captured beauty, visual expression with receptive emotion, translated to a joyous moment with the Universe.

The recognition of a spiritual force, a moment when eternity unfolds, then simply etches the “forever” in your open “heart” then, in the twinkling of an eye, the moment is gone… but always the memory will linger on.

How are you doing, friends, ask… I’m doing fine thank you…  My life is enriched by all the blessings I am so fortunate to have found in YOU.  My thank YOU to each and every one of you, who have let me know you care,  with your caring, my loss is easier to bare, I appreciate each and everyone of you….

PL Precept # 11   Always be with God

Oyashikiri

 

 

Forever Young

Alo May 2_003

Some times I am just too cute for words!  =^_^=

Day 2  PL Calendar –  Be forever Young and Seek New Challenges

The world is constantly in motion and never rests.  Keep your senses sharp and be ready to adapt to the every changing world.

I  so truly believe in these words.  One of the reasons I enjoy Second Life so much (virtual world) click here is the opportunities it gives me to express my artistic self, as well, as be anyone, or any “creature” I want.  The  creative opportunities are endless.

Every day, we live our lives usually dealing with the immediate needs that come our way.  To keep our senses sharp and be ready to adapt, we have to be willing to “let go” of old habits, and to allow new ideas and expressions to colour our world.

Little steps.  One day at a time.

Oyashikiri

In the PL community there is always someone to listen.  Someone to “help” .. someone to “listen”

be calm

velcro 9.11.17

PL Calendar day 17

Be Calm, Be Kind without compromising

Hesitating to share our true feelings hurts not only ourselves but others.  While respecting the other person’s feelings say what you need to say.


cartoon, greyhound

Life is what we make of it.  Life is full of challenges and opportunities.  Seize the day, make every second count.

Thank you to each and every one of you who has taken the time to write and ask me how my husband is doing.  There is nothing more that can be done to “stall” or “stop” the cancer.. it is doing what it has set its mind to do.

My husband we hope will come home this week for palliative care with a team of health care workers who come to the home, including a palliative care physician. Should it get to be too much to handle in the home environment, we will move on to the next step .

Blessings to each and every one of you.  Your caring, your support, is so appreciated. We hold you near and dear, each ray of energy you send our way is caught up and embraced with love.  We return the love to you a hundred fold. OYASHIKIRI

time moves on

hogs back d

When I visited the rapids the other day, I was telling my friend how it was many years ago, people sitting on the rocks, enjoying picnics on the grounds.  Now access to the water is blocked off for safety reasons.  The water is constantly churning and thunders down the channels between the rocks with a deafening roar.

It was gray and overcast on the day the pictures were taken, and I hadn’t expected the pictures to be almost monotone, shades of black and white.  They just turned out that way.  I find the pictures have a timeless quality to them, I am enjoying them, and allowing the memories to slowly filter into the present.

Today April 14th. the calendar reads..

Be a person who invites happiness

Live your life with good timing and respond quickly to whatever appears in front of you.  By doing so, things will keep getting better and better.

I believe that.  I drive by on the bridge you see there, often, sometimes, once or twice a week.  I travel that way to get to a part of the west end … I don’t even look at the rapids. With the truck windows up… one doesn’t hear the water.  Making time to actually stop and visit the park, was unplanned.  But in doing so, I have created another great memory. a “happy”

“Happy” makes me smile, “Happy” is a feel good.  May your day be filled with lots of “HAPPY”

Oyashikiri

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